About me and this blog

I honestly don’t know exactly what I was thinking when I started this blog, but I just needed an outlet. After finding out I had celiac disease, I was in a bit of a fog. Okay, I have been in a brain fog for years, but this was like being in the middle of San Francisco Bay in a small dinghy with only one oar and the fog rolling in with some very dark clouds. I was thinking of the story of the only three men who escaped from Alcatraz only to find themselves in a very unforgiving waterway that was quickly dragging them out to the Pacific and wondered if they thought, “I’d be fine just going back to prison.” In much the same way, I have already had days where I’ve thought, “Screw it, I’ll just be sick and eat what I want.” Seriously, this is going to be a battle.

I needed something to focus on other than food because that is all I think about now. I design websites for a living so why not design one for just me? Aside from the one for my business and my portfolio and all the other odd and short-lived sites I had designed over the years, of course. I just needed a place to vent and figure out how to deal with this new life. Because that’s what celiac disease is – a new way of life. You literally have to think about every single thing you put in your mouth, every day, for the rest of your life. I’ve been on diets and healthy eating kicks over the years, but there were always cheat days or times when you could chill and just eat whatever the hell you wanted. Those days are long gone. At least if I want to ever feel better. And I really do. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt even close to healthy so the idea of that even being a reality is what will push me through this.

So this is where I am. I am over 50 and dealing with perimenopause in addition to all this gluten-y fun, so it will be interesting to see which symptoms can be blamed on what. At least the menopause will eventually go away. Beyond that, I am a geeky artist type with a dog who keeps me sane and a stack of books beside my bed that I one day hope to finish. But I’m staying anonymous for the time being. If this blog pans out in any way beyond my rants and recipes, I’ll reveal more about myself. But for now, I just need a space where I can say whatever the hell I want without any judgment or feeling like I need to explain myself.

I assure you I am a real person. I intend to review recipes and gluten-free products and will do my best to be as thorough and truthful as possible. And hey, I don’t have any sponsors or ads or other ways of making money off this blog yet, so it’s just for the pure release and possibility of both helping other people figure this out and just figure it out for myself. So you can follow along with me and learn things as I do if you so choose. And if you do, I thank you and hope that you have found a way to deal with this damn disease as well.

And seriously, suck it, gluten!